Sunday, 26 November 2017

Happiness is contagious - my new work environment

'Happiness is contagious'
The extra added perk each morning, as you step in the company premises, hot-hotter-hottest hunks and young-tiny-tall bombshells surround you..
..greet you with smile and are happy to see you, eager to rush into the lecture hall because they know, they are going to laugh and giggle, their motivation level is going to get pumped up and they are going to have a charged up day.
The magic of smile is known, when Cute suited booted HR managers are always around you, if you need something..
And above all when all the hotness, cuteness, sexiness, mannerisms, hospitality, etiquette and elitism are bound to respect and listen to you..
Happiness is contagious, basic rule of hospitality/entertainment/service industry - I like the most about my company, it makes my day happy!!

फैसला..

ये फैसला तेरा है अब,
खुद को पूरा का या मुझे अधूरा कर जा,
मुझे काफ़िर बना दे या मेरा खुदा बन जा
तू जब भी मिलेगा सजदा तेरे लबों का करेंगे
या थाम मुझे और सुकून देदे, या जीने की ही वजह बन जा,
यूँ न खफा हो, है फासले तेरे मेरे दरम्यान,
मुझसे वफ़ा नहीं तो मुझे बेवफ़ा कर जा..
खुद को पूरा कर या मुझे अधूरा कर जा..
अब न ज़िद होगी, न इंतज़ार तेरे आने का,
ना होगा मकसद किसी बहाने का,
तू किसी और को चाह कर भी ना पा सका
तू मेरा ना बन, मुझे मेरा कर जा..
खुद को पूरा कर या मुझे अधूरा कर जा..
बस चंद लम्हों में हट गए तेरे कदम
हाथ थाम कर बैठा था बेवजह शायद
अब थाम ही ले हाथों को,
या मुझे बेवज़ह कर जा,
खुदा बन मेरा या मुझे काफ़िर कर जा..
है फैसला तेरा, मुझे अधूरा या पूरा कर जा..
तेरी मुहोब्बत, तेरी बगावत, तेरी रंजिश, तेरी मंज़िल ही सही
मुझे हमसफ़र ना सही, मेरा सफ़र बन जा,
वापस आ और समेट बाहों में बिखरने से पहले
या सैलाब आने दे और मुझे पत्थर कर जा..
अधूरा, या पूरा, पर फैसला कर जा..

To giveaway whatever you have..

After long.. very long.. maybe because I have accepted.. Believe in Karma, Have faith in God, accept the pain you're going through.  be thankful that he chose you for the sufferings because he wants to see you somewhere.. you just keep making efforts, and don't quit fighting. it's okay not to be strong enough to face the situation when each moment and everything pushes you to the edge to quit and accept your defeat, find the ray of hope..  GIVEAWAY the kind of LOVE you want to others   becausee you understand the worth and need of love, support and the warmth of hug somebody needs when in pain since you have been there and gone through it.
The sufferings either make you a monster or make you human but the choice is yours because somewhere down the line you're the reason of your own miserable situations..
..and you will suffer till you seek dependence, somebody to come and lift you in arms, be your crutches.. 
meanwhile you're crippled and regretting for the loss giveaway the left over love, hope and strength you have in yourself and be empty..
Being empty is far more better than being lost. let go and let God.. You need not forgive and forget what you're going through, been through all you have to do is accept it positively as a part of your processing.
you're tortured, hammered, beaten, broken, crushed down to dust because the process is painful being into the furnace..
just imagine the first ray of light when you will cross the dark and lost alley, the feeling of being content, serene and relieved.. yes, you have to keep moving on.. and on.. and on.. because these kind of furnaces, dark alleys, purgatory would be countless in your way since your aim is to WIN.. over the world, over the foes, over the pain, over YOURSELF..
to conclude my vent of lazy sunday morning ranting I'd quote Shri Harivansh Rai Bachchan ji
वृक्ष हो बड़े घने
एक पत्र छाँव भी मांग मत
तू ना रुकेगा कभी
तू ना झुकेगा कभी
तू ना थकेगा कभी
कर शपथ कर शपथ कर शपथ
अग्निपथ अग्निपथ अग्निपथ..

The winters..

''This weather, chai, one shawl and you in the balcony.. '' Wish you were here,
I'd have shared
some sips of chai
Leaning in the balcony,
Giggling over your jokes
Sometimes, resting my head
On your shoulders
Or hiding in your warm shawl
Wish you were here
I'd have tasted your lips
For long
I'm craving for kiss
And that beautiful song
Wish you were here,
Holding me in your arms
Leading the way of romancing souls..
I'd have followed your steps
In this weather, chai, one shawl and you in the balcony..

करवट बदल कर पहले हमें थमेगा कौन

महज़ इस बात पे लड़े थे हम
की करवट बदल कर पहले थामे कौन
पलकों पर सूखी हुई नमी को न मैंने दिखाया
ना वो पलट कर कह सका के छोडो जाने दो
महज़ इस बात पे लड़े थे हम
की करवट बदल कर पहले थामे कौन..
चुप चाप रसोई में जा कर सुबह की चाय बना दी
बिना कुछ बोले तौलिया वहीँ रखा रोज़ की तरह
इससे पहले वो कुछ बोले मैंने मौक़ा ना दिया
बेतरतीब पड़ी फाइलों को समेट, कमीज का टूटा बटन टांक दिया
फिर भी उदास चेहरे पर ये उम्मीद थी
तिरछी आँखों से इंतज़ार था उसके हाथों का कमर पर
के मनाने के लिए थोड़ी जद्दोजहद होगी तो मान जाउंगी
अपनी बात ऊपर रख कर सब कुछ मनवाउंगी
चिट भी मेरी और पट भी मेरी का रिवाज़ तो उस दिन से था
सालों पहले चाय की प्याली सरकाते हुए
और सबकी नज़रे बचाते हुए धीमे से पुछा था मुझसे
"थोडा गुस्से वाला हूँ.. चलेगा?"
मैंने सर झुका कर भर दी थी हामी और कहा
" अगर थोड़ा नखरा मेरा भी हो तो चलेगा?"
और अब महज़ इस बात पे लड़ बैठे हम,
करवट बदल कर पहले थामेगा कौन..
..करवट बदल कर पहले हमें थमेगा कौन..

The man and the wife

I chose to be blind and good with my ears.
I have stopped being an espionage for his deeds and I shifted him from my first priority.
and I have firmly prepared my head to catch my heart the next time it breaks.
That's how I chose to be happy and made efforts towards it..
That's how he became a loyal man and I, a wife.

another Crisis

The most common statements I hear being into academics are "you have got nothing else to do" .."you hav no practical knowledge about the world" .."bookish" "Jobless" "Because you do 'nothing', you become fussy and frustrated, go join a gym or get some job" .."oversmart" Earlier I used to be demoralized and then father once told, "our surrounding is full of people who measure success by monetory terms, what position you are holding, which chair do you represent and how fat is your account, they have nothing to do with the numbers of book you read or how dedicated you are towards your chosen path. But then, it is your decision, do you really want to live among that class or have you dremt of a better life when you will break your cocoon?
Some things take patience and more than required time, when you feel that the world is settled but you are still in the middle of nowhere."
It somehow managed to convince me that he was right, he made his point.
but still the issue is we have to deal that majority, we cannot avoid it, Trust me I still do and I just end up ignoring those people as if they don't exist.
or maybe I chose to be Blind because I cannot keep on proving each Anti-Education person, the value of higher education. They will certify me as crazy as they say " jyada padhne se dimag kharab ho jata hai" :D
meanwhile dealing with the crisis another came up,
"What If I get a life partner who doesn't value the education the way I do, or his family too, It is like rotting in hell if he would think the way other's did, so far?" is the another big doubt I suffer.
There will be big conflict in the ideas and perspectives.
I am sure most of my age singles are dealing with this shit too and have no idea where it is going to be.lol.

Purpose of PhD

One of the toughest challenges for me would be the translation of my thesis into colloquial Hindi language and publish it, so that the students and people who learn English as a second language could get benefit in their pronunciation and removing the MTI. I want to make the book so simple by removing all technicalities so any layman can get hold, read and understand. I wish to avail it to the school students and government institutions working for the development of the skills and communication, free of cost. I wish to contribute my bit in the education and development of my society and the students. I don't want to be just another PhD degree holder serving an academic institution and retire when the age comes. That's my dream for now, I don't know, how would I be able to achieve it but I won't quit like I didn't in past 8 years.

नवम्बर में छुट्टी की दोपहर

उनके बालों में चांदी की तारें थी, लंबी सी नाक पर एक हल्का सा तिल, निचला होंठ मानो, खुद ही बहार झांकता हो, और बड़ी बड़ी भूरी आँखे।
चहरे पर कुछ दाग से थे, उनको एक टक लगा कर देखूं तो अटपटा से जाते थे, चहरे का रंग कुछ ज्यादा ही सांवला था और उनके सीने से मुझे कुछ ज्यादा ही प्यार था..
अंदर घुस के जैसे ही सोती, ठण्ड मानो गायब सी हो जाती, और मैं ऐसे उनकी बाहों में फिट हो जाती जैसे उन्ही के लिए बनी हूँ।
बिस्तर पर लेटे नहीं की भारी साँसे और खर्राटे शुरू, मुझे बाहों में यूँ कस लेते हैं की जरा सी तेज़ सांस लूँ तो नींद टूट जाए, सोच कर,मैं हिलती भी न थी..
मतलब सोचो, इंसान सोएगा कैसे गर इतनी ज़ोर खर्राटे कोई ले तो? फिर ज़रा सी करवट ली और भींच लिया और माथा, आँखे, नाक, होंठ, गाल चूम के फिर सो गए!
कभी कभी लगता है जैसे मैं कोई टेडी बेयर हूँ, और वो कोई पापा की लाड़ली प्रिंसेस, छोड़ते ही नहीं..
एक काँधे पर गाल लगाए और सीने पर हाथ रखे 20 मिनट हो गए थे बाबा राम देव के "आक्वार्ड आसान" की दम घोंटू मुद्रा में लेटे हुए, कान गर्म हो चुका था और उनका कन्धा भीग चुका था, बड़ी मुश्किल से मैंने अपनी टांग निकाली, तो वो हिल गए और नींद टूट गई।
क्या हुआ?
कुछ नही गर्मी लग रही है।
अच्छा, पानी दूँ, पंखा चलाऊँ, कुछ ठंडा पिओगी, अब ठीक है?
जी मैं ठीक हूँ
दो सेकंड रुक कर, पसीने में चिपकी मेरी लटों को कान के पीछे खोंस्ते हुए कबीर बोले, "गजब खूबसूरत हो यार, कौन सी चक्की का आटा खाती हो?"
मैंने मुंह पिचका के हाथ पर मारा, धत्त!
और उन्होंने हाथ पकड़ कर फिर खींच लिया..
छुट्टी की दोपहर कुछ ऐसी ही होती है..

Marriage is not beautiful

Marriage is ugly, you see the absolute worst in someone. You see them when they’re mad, sad, being stubborn, when they’re so unlovable they make you scream. But you also get to see them when they are laughing so hard that tears run down their face, and they can’t help but let out those weird gurgling noises. You see them at 3am when the world is asleep except you two, and you’re eating in the middle of the kitchen floor. You get to see the side of them that no one else does, and it’s not always pretty. Its snorting while laughing, its the tears when it feels like its all crashing down, its the farting, its the bedhead and bad breath, its the random dances, its the anger and the joy. Marriage isn’t a beautiful thing, but it is amazing. It’s knowing that someone loves you so much, and won’t leave you even though you said something nasty. It’s having someone have your back no matter what. Its fights over stupid things, like someone not doing the dishes or picking up after themselves. And it’s those nights you fall asleep in each others arms, feeling like there will never be enough time with them. It’s cleaning up their throw up, or just rubbing their back when they’re sick. It’s the dirtiest, hardest, most rewarding job there is. Because at the end of the day you get to crawl into bed with your best friend, the weirdest, most annoying, loving, goofy, perfect person that you know. Marriage is not beautiful, but it’s one heaven of a ride. 

You're an asshole

To those idiots who think dogs are "toys"
Please never tie your dog outside your place and abandon it for whole day.
Usually, people love and cuddle the puppies and leave them in couple of months as they begin to grow and become responsibility.
Puppies are not "living toys" they look cute because they're cheerful and playful.
But people should understand that unlike human babies, the dogs never grow to be a self dependent living being. They will always be a baby, if you don't train them, they will poop inside, chew off your sandals, tear off your clothes, sofas, beds, everything and anything.
Dogs are sensitive animals like horses. They are more prone to depression and they are well aware of human emotions. If you abandon them like this they will become dangerous and bite others.
Just giving them left overs and keeping them outside your homes "for protection" isn't the right thing, you're not only torturing the animal but also displaying the world that "how big jerk you're". Treat your dogs like the member of your family, not like a stuffed toy for your own babies or a gatekeeper of your threshold.
The simplest thing we can do, don't pet a dog just because you see a cute cuddly puppy playing with your feet, when you cannot take care of it like your own child.